The random jottings of Lewis after the death of his wife.
Split up by the notebook -- you have to read between the lines to see where the breaks occured within the notebook. (There were four -- he refused to buy them, so he just used up empty ones.)
Things like grief feeling like fear -- and still more, like surprise. Reflections on death. Observations about what bereavement has shown about himself and his thoughts. Discussions of people's reactions and the note that bereavement is as much a part of the marriage as the courtship.